faking it

juliagillardvevo asked: is there a certain brand of wig you like because i really need some help over here in choosing

hihi! There is, actually… although I’ll get them from just about anywhere if they look and feel good and the price is right. 

If you’re looking for wigs that don’t require a lot of maintenance and come in every color known to man… get one from Arda-Wigs! They can be a tad bit pricey, but you won’t regret it (and a few of them glow under blacklight, so yay…). There’s a few places on eBay that are actually safe to buy from too (meaning they won’t scam you out of your money)… wpf-wigs is a good one, I’ve ordered a few from there with no problems!

juliagillardvevo asked: I'd just like for you to know how happy your posts make me and I'd like for you to know that you're appreciated and I think you're an amazing person, that's all <3

aw shucks! you make me blush as pink as my hair! I appreciate all ya’ll readers here too, if you weren’t here I wouldn’t be writing <3

confession # - catch of the day

The one roadblock I have, of which there are many. That form a concrete barrier. With barbed wire on top. 

I have not written on here for quite some time now, and for that I apologize. Carnegie Mellon University is not known for being a crazy school with crazy schedules for nothing! I’ll have some images up of some of my most recent work soon, including of my first solo gallery performance as a dog-headed stripping monster.

Now, onto those pesky roadblocks. Many of my posts are rather long, but I want to keep this one fairly short, sweet, and to the point. If you may recall, one of the first posts I had one here was about one such roadblock which was being female. That’s a bit pretentious of me, looking back. being of a specific gender (or not) should not be an excuse for any sort of behavior, nor should it be a crutch for weaknesses in character, performance, etc.

For a while now, I’ve been trying to unpack that statement I made back in the summer. Well, if I can’t say that being a woman is a cause of my troubles, then what is?  

One such thing, I’ve come to understand, is my reaction to a language that I find not only offensive but directly derogatory and attacking towards parts of my body and being that I do not wish to change. I have no issue with comedically large breasts and the fact that many a queens has botched their foam boob-jobs (or if they refuse to wear padding for their breasts or butt). If the goal of being a drag queen is that you wish to look like some kind of woman, then those all count as ‘things to add’ if you want to appear as some sort of woman. Even I can’t contest that, nor do I want to.

Where I start to get that ‘this isn’t right’ feeling is when comments are made about genitalia (butts and boobs are also the subject of the following types of comments, but it’s never nearly as common). There’s the classic use of the word “cunt” to describe a strong sort of appearance or look as well as to describe an annoying, problem-causing person. Rupaul may have tried to take back that word years ago with her Charisma, Uniqueness, Nerve, & Talent credo, but what does that mean for those who have been trying to take that word back or de-popularize its use as a slur against those who identify as being women? Same goes for jokes and comments made on female genitalia as clams, tuna, or smelling/tasting fishy (funny, I’ve heard that term used in other ways too… HM…), and using the infantalizing term ‘girl’ (gerl/gurl/grrrl). 

The point I am trying to make is that, as someone who is rather sensitive to how language is used to police one group/person/whatever’s actions and behavior, the double-standard of gay man + femme-hating language directed towards another gay man/drag queen = compliment versus gay man + femme-hating language directed towards a woman = insult is one of the most challenging aspects of drag culture for me to overcome and ‘own’… simply because, in my right mind, I can’t own something hateful.

There is something to be said for movements trying to take back a word (faggot’s a fairly good example here), but the action is never complete and many are still left shamed and hurt. 

What are your thoughts on this? Would love to hear them!

new posts coming soon

Anonymous asked: As an aspiring queen, is it ok to not take any interest in makeup *outside* of drag? Because I find that I like over the top drag makeup but I don't really like/see the purpose of everyday makeup.

Of course! The lovely thing about drag/costumery/performance is that you can take it off at the end of the night and not have it hang over other activities and day-to-day living :D plus the break from makeup between drag and normal time is that your skin is probably thanking you… haha…